Left Me Hanging

I never realised how unstable my feelings were.
Just the presence of your name could bring my mood from hyper to down right bitchy.
Trolling my friends. Faking a smile to the respected. Absent minded.
How did you mange to still hold my heart after eight and a half months.
I thought I've set myself straight three months ago.
That I would never let myself stoop low enough to miss you.
But that's just the sad truth now isn't it.
I hate this. Needing you yet not wanting you.

FML.